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Monday, October 03, 2005

emaths paper 2 was pretty easy apart from the 3D question that's worth 10 marks. hur. hope i can do well. ( : SS was lameshit. i studied the last chapter so hard but didn't do the question in the end. lol. apparently i forgot everything? oh well. so happy that i'm 3 papers down. left with 5 more. god bless me.

i feel better now. after i got some load off my chest. talked to my mum? surprise surprise. haha. i have to admit she knows me. but she doesn't know/understand how i truly feel? but that's fair, cause i don't know how she truly feels either. maybe its true, mothers know best? hmm. so my heart feels lighter now. but somehow i still feel very constricted. like something is pressing tightly against my heart? i am lost. all i can do now is to pray for a miracle. yeah. i broke down and cry. felt so much better. it was much needed. thought through many stuffs. did some reflection. i am really trying hard to be happy. but its just too difficult but i'll try. i must be strong. because i am standing on my feet alone. there won't be anyone who's there for me, apart from myself.
alright alright. i'm gonna practise amaths soon. i musn't fail anymore. so bye.

tuesday - no paper! ( :
wednesday - pure physics. =/
thursday - amaths and history.
friday - cheena.
monday - pure chem.

how do i follow my heart,
when i don't even know what it wants?